I first started blogging as a way to let out my own emotions onto a platform where I could attempt to help other people. At first, it was slow, I didnt really know how to work blogger or how to get my blog known or how to get people to read it, so my posts were all over the place and the majority of my earlier posts are now deleted, well, reverted to drafts.
I am not embarrassed of the posts because I was genuinely trying to help people and the thought was there, however, its just not the content that I wanted on my blog anymore. I have grown up a lot since then and I know and understand so much more about the mental health subjects and topics that I used to talk about, so they are no longer very relevant.
Over the few years that I have been uploading, I have found so much comfort in knowing that I have helped people, whether that is just the one or a hundred, everything matters and until the day I die, I will try to help people. I have noticed over time that when I am helping people, I make myself feel better and its so rewarding!
Another reason why I started posting is because I loved english. I wasnt too good at it (although I did get an A and a B in it at GCSE, which surprised me!) but writing made me happy so posting was making me happy and also helping to develop my skills.
If you compared my first few posts to my most recent few posts you'd see an incredible amount of progress with regards to my writing style but also my subject knowledge. It is nice to look back at my old posts and see how far I have come, I like hard evidence of progress because I dont normally believe it.
There are people that I know have been there since the very first day that I started blogging and still continue to read my posts now, which is incredible- so thank you. When I lost my @smilerofdestiny twitter account, I was going to give up blogging as I just wasnt getting any views as on that account, I had 89K followers, so people clicked it. Now, I have 78K, so I am slowly getting it back however, people dont seem as enthusiastic to read it which kind of sucks but I'll live.
My blog has helped me in so many ways and I hope it has helped at least one person, as always, thank you for reading!