Friday, 27 July 2018

3 Things I Would Do If I Wasnt So Afraid

Irrational fears greatly control many of our brains without having reason for doing so, for example, we have had no previously bad experiences with our fears. Maybe it is just the unknown? Maybe it is embarrassment? Maybe we just have extremely irrational fears? But there is no doubt about it that these irrational fears hold us back from things that we would really like to do.

Something I have always wanted to do, but always known that I would be way too scared to do is driving. Although driving is a totally normal thing and there are millions of cars on the road every day, I am still absolutely terrified of driving and I somehow dont think that I will ever manage it. Maybe that is why I am so afraid, that it is such a normal thing and I am worried that I may not be able to do it? I know many, many people are terrified to drive but overcome that fear whilst having lessons but for me it just seems a completely impossible thought that I could maybe be on the road one day. It isnt just the driving itself that absolutely terrifies me: its the idea of crashes, being physically injured or just having to exchange details with someone to sort the mess out. Police just driving about, it makes me nervous even though I am only the passenger sometimes! Maybe one day I will overcome this fear, at least, I hope I do.

I think going diving somewhere warm would be an absolutely amazing experience, but it is something I also cannot see myself doing. Even just swimming in the sea on holiday makes me extremely nervous for a few reasons. One being waves. I. Dont. Like. Big. Waves. I like the sea to be still, thats when I am somewhat comfortable in the sea. Also, funny story whilst I am at it, I was in the sea on holiday one time, stupidly wearing my glasses. A big wave came and went straight over my head and my glasses were never seen again. Luckily, I had enough pairs of contact lenses to last me the rest of the holiday or that could've been an issue. Anyway, moving on from my glasses trauma. I also have a massive fear of deep water, I hate not being able to touch the floor (but at the same time, I hate touching the floor!). Not knowing what is underneath me scares the heck out of me, fish, crabs, seaweed ect, honestly I am like a big baby when it comes to being in the sea. I prefer to just chill inside a ring. But, maybe one day I will pluck up the courage and do this, even just snorkelling or just swimming in deep water would be enough!

When I go on holiday, part of me loves being in a plane and another part of me absolutely despises it. I love the view from the window, the fields from so high up, the lakes, buildings, clouds and whatever else you see from the plane window, but I hate the height, it scares me. For the beautiful view, I would love to do a skydive. I think it would be the most empowering experience, yet there are so many factors that terrify me! Like, what if the parachute didnt work? What if I got there and I couldnt do it? What if I landed funny? I so hope to do it one day, maybe with someone who wouldnt be scared to do it at all so that I could feel their energy and they could motivate me. What would be even better would be to do it for a charity, raise money whilst conquering a fear.

Maybe one day I will accomplish all of these, maybe not. But I am going to set myself a realistic goal. Ebony, your challenge is to complete at least one of these by 2024, that gives you just over 5 years, good luck.

13 comments:

  1. I love this post idea and I really hope one day you accomplish these. You can do anything you want to achieve, you’ll face your fears soon x

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  2. Fear does hold me back from certain things. I do not know how my fear started. I would love to think, like watching my kids grow, I was fearless once too. I developed the fear along the way somehow. I will be rooting for you that in the near future you will have done all these 3 things you are fearful off. Stay strong and beautiful.

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  3. Thanks for sharing such an intimate part of yourself!

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  4. Goodluck, I hope you face all your fears and conquer them. xx

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  5. Love this post, sorry for your glasses trauma though! I too have a fear of touching the floor of the sea and also not being able to, it’s so stressful!!!

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  6. Yes, like you too, I fear the unknown too. I will never learn to drive and I will leave it at that. I used to be afraid of heights but now, I don't.

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  7. You can do it love! Thank you for opening up about your fears and I hope that one day you can overcome them. Be positive and as long as you try that will still be great. I wish you nothing but the best!

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  8. You’re incredible, you’ll do this girrrrl

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