Thursday, 15 September 2016

Dear Idol

Dear you, 
Me again, obviously its a letter! Its weird- writing these to you makes me feel better. See what I did there? 

I have had the joy of listening to your music for years, since the X-Factor in 2012 to be exact. This is when I discovered you; when you showcased your talent in front of Britain. Well done, for getting out of  bed that morning and dragging yourself to auditions- it is scary to think what my life would be like if I hadn't witnessed that small, singer/song writer from Buxton, in Derbyshire, singing her own song about her wild nights under the influence of alcohol.

Thank you for your songs, the words you write from your heart that make me feel so close to you. Lighthouse, it is my favourite. I feel like the lighthouse in this song is you- you being the lighthouse in my storm. You or your music always cheer me up, no matter how I am feeling and that is something that I cannot thank you for enough. 

Thank you for releasing Dear You, and raising awareness for mental health. I dont know if you know but I would love to see a change in the way that people view and treat people with a mental illness- which is why I started this blog in the first place. 

Thank you for sharing your own story with mental illness. You probably have no idea but you've helped so many people realise that they're not alone and that they are worthy of help. I am sorry you had to go through that but something positive has come out of it in the end- you helped people, like you wanted to do when you wanted to become a firefighter!

Thank you for the many direct messages you've sent to me on twitter, every single message you send means the absolute world- I know you're a busy woman but the fact that you can take 2 minutes out of your day to message a fan just shows how down to earth and grounded you are.

Thank you for always being so lovely to me, whether this is in person or via the internet. I have never known a celebrity so dedicated to making their fans happy and feel loved as you do- you have no idea how much, you just knowing that we exist means to us. Every favourite, retweet, direct message and tweet makes us feel so special and its amazing how you can make us feel. With regards to meeting in person, I have never met someone so lovely, it is always a pleasure to meet you. 

Thank you for the many names you have called me that made me smile, no matter how mean they sound! A funny one, Ebola, Creeper, Creepy tall gal and a little ray of sunshine. All reflect our friendship really well- show that you're up for a laugh and are a genuinely lovely person. 

Thank you Lucy Spraggan for the memories and the love, you'll always be my reason, my life and my friend.

love Eb(ola) x
P.s. just know that you are SO worthy of happiness and your health is so important- if you need time for your health/mental health, please take some time to help yourself. You're so talented and beautiful- stay happy.

Monday, 12 September 2016

The Lazy Bag!

I recently came across the company 'Lazy bags,' whilst scrolling down my news feed on facebook. I checked out their facebook page and absolutely loved their product.

I saw that this company were hosting a competition to win one of their lazy bags and thought how wonderful it would be to win one of them, so I entered and won! They sent it surprisingly fast too and when I returned home from a mini break I was very happy to see the lazy bag waiting for me. 

I thought I would wait a couple of weeks before I did a post about the lazy bag so I could really test out the product in as many different places as possible. I did this. I used the lazy bag in many places including: inside, on grass and the beach. All locations I have found the lazy bag perfect- easy to inflate and put up, easy to get on, easy to get off and most importantly extremely comfortable! 

You can use the lazy bag pretty much anywhere- even on water (however with my balancing skills I don't think I'd stay on for too long). Its just like a blow up sofa, that can be shipped all across the world!

Someone even came up to us whilst using the lazy bag asking about it and he thought how wonderful it was! (I have to agree).

I caught my sister testing out the lazy bag by the sea, so I took some photos- I shall post a few below.

I would 100% recommend buying one of these fantastic products from this company, they are fairly cheap for what you can do with them and where you can use them, comfortable and easily portable as they come in a little bag which can be carried on the shoulder. 

If you wish to purchase a lazy bag just like this one (which come in many different pretty colours and patterns) you can find them on the following links: 

Saturday, 10 September 2016

National Suicide Prevention Week (5th-11th)

This week (5th-11th September) is national suicide prevention week. Today- 10th of September is national suicide prevention day. 

Suicide is the act of intentionally ending your life. I haven't been able to find any more recent stats than 2014, but read this. There were 6,122 registered suicides in the UK in 2014. The male suicide rate decreased in the UK by 5.6%. However, female suicide rates increased in the UK by 8.3% which is a very worrying statistic. This is why suicide prevention week is held, to raise awareness and to help people to reach out if they are suicidal. 

What makes people want to take their own lives? Obviously this cannot be for everyone but here are a few reasons why someone may take their own life. 
1. They're depressed. This is without question the most common reason people commit suicide. 
2. They're psychotic. Inner voices often command self-destruction for invalid reasons.  
3. They're impulsive. Often related to drugs and alcohol, some people become maudlin and impulsively attempt to end their own lives.
4. They're crying out for help, and don't know how else to get it. These people don't usually want to die but do want to alert those around them that something is seriously wrong. 
5. They have a philosophical desire to die. The decision to commit suicide for some is based on a reasoned decision, often motivated by the presence of a painful terminal illness from which little to no hope of reprieve exists. 
6. Bullying and cyber-bullying. Bullying can cause mental illnesses and suicide, be careful what you say.

People from mostly every age have been recorded to have taken their own lives. We need to change this, if you know someone who is struggling, reach out to them, ask them if they're ok, if they want anything doing, if they want any help, a hug, some food? You doing that could be the change in their decision. Think about what you say.

Many of us have specific things that makes us want to 'stay alive.' I asked my followers on both Twitter and Instagram what theirs were. Here are a few of my followers reasons to stay alive:


To see all there is, there's still so much to do, concerts to go to, friends to meet, games to play, films to watch, etc. — @dreamluminosity 

The last thing mum said to me before she died was that she wanted me to continue living and make her proud. — @jessespraggan

My family. — @heatherydt

There are so many beautiful things, places, and people I've yet to encounter. — @spooky_jamie

My reason is my family, friends and music. I couldn't live without either of them! Having support in anything you feel you need it is truly crucial and support from others, whoever they may be, really helps me stay positive. — @josephrail

My beautiful partner and my nephew are the reasons I'm still here today, they make me happier than any words will be able to say and I love them both with all my heart. Without my girlfriend I wouldn't be the person I am today, she brought me out of the dark time I was in and continues to help and support me through difficult situations. My nephew brightens my day with his beautiful little smile that he gives me as soon as I step through the door and together they are my world. — @katielouise_s

My best friends. — @nicolescabello

Because there is still so much for us to explore and we can't waste our life on a temporary problem. — @rebecca_sm_

My friends, the people I adore, my favourite bands are still making music, theres so much beauty in the world to see. — @tonysturtles

Because of my future career and my partner. — @ashes0feden 

We are all worth something. You may never set foot on the moon, but you're already someone. Family, friends and Lucy Spraggan. — @amiiejoynes

I have a goal that I'm going to meet the sidemen. — @marishell1213

@mysterylil1 @narryvslilo. — @91_93_93_94

There are lots of things to be thankful for, first of all, life. I've been through many bad circumstances and I'm pretty sure most of you have experienced that too, but as we go on, we learn lessons! We must be alive. Why? Because we need to stand up and make not just the people around us proud, but ourselves proud. There is so much more in this world, we just need to focus on the positive side of it. — @urieattacks

My brother and sister, i want to see them grow up. — @naomilyxo

To make my family proud! Also to see 5H and be in an amazing group chat. — @meganorouke98


No one else knows how to look after my furry babies better than me. — @aimeerayner_

You can't hug your favourite people if you're not here. — @emmaballsxry

My mum needs me as much as I need her. — @elliebogg

I've tried leaving and realised I can get better. — @autographcollector1010100

I'm stronger, I've learn that I am needed and I am loved even on my worst days. — @cbialley

If we aren't here, we show the haters that they are better than us and that gives them the attention they want and everyone should know that they are better than that. Everyone is beautiful and strong. — @s_g_xx

I've got so much more I want to do in my lifetime. — @jozanda

Poppy would be lost without me. — @cloggs2000 (so would I chlobo)

If I wasn't here, my family wouldn't be able to cope! Because the children who feel just like this wont have anyone to comfort them! My friends would be destroyed. Dying from suicide to end the pain only leaves that pain for the people who loved you and always have an empty part of you in them. — @_oh_broken_mirror_

For my family, to support my friends and to see my idol. — @aliciaa.draycott 

To show him that he cant win, I'm stronger now. — @hollybruce_

If you are suicidal right now:
Getting help in an emergency
If you don't feel you can keep yourself safe right now, seek immediate help.
  • go to any hospitals A&E department (sometimes known as the emergency department)
  • call 999 and ask for an ambulance if you can't get to A&E
  • ask someone else to contact 999 for you or take you to A&E immediately
If you need some support right now, but don't want to go to A&E, here are some other options for you to try:
  • contact the Samaritans on freephone 116 123, they're open 24 hours and are there to listen
  • contact your GP for an emergency appointment or the out of hours team
  • call NHS 111 (England) 
  • contact your local crisis team